Hi everyone, this is Esateys, it’s so great to be here with you.  Now that I’m doing these twice a week, it feels like I hardly ever see you and I’m excited to be back here with you today.  So, today I’m going to speak about, has your heart ever hurt?  It’s kind of a silly question because if you’re in a human body and you have any kind of feelings, you’re pretty much going to say yes to that.  When I was about 16, I was really best friends with my oldest sister’s husband, and he would confide in me.  And, the two of them were having difficulties and I was Ann Landers (for those of you who know who that is) way back then. And that’s kind of a role that I have played throughout my entire life, which is why I finally made it into a business, cuz I do coaching and I can listen to people, and I can help them be clear.

But, at any rate I was doing that back then, and we were very close and as it happened, he called me one day and he had been really, really depressed and very sad.  And, he sounded really up, he sounded like things were going to be ok.  And I said well what’s going on?  He said, well I’m gonna go meet with Billie (that was my sister’s name) tonight, and I feel good.  And at the time, I didn’t really know what a critical sign that was, and was happened is, he went to her work when she came out on her break (this is a little graphic for you so just take a breath,) he shot himself in front of her. And that was a really, really difficult thing of course, very traumatic for her.  But it was also very traumatic for me, and my heart was like my heart was the part that got the shotgun, because I just felt blown into a million pieces.  I felt guilty, how come I didn’t do anything?  I felt empty, I felt sad, I felt really like what have I done that I could not have made this be different?  And why didn’t I get that that’s one of the signs of people that are suicidal?  And then about three months later, my best friend (still 16, we were going to her 16th birthday party,) and that day of her party which was all planned, she was in a car accident, and she died.

So, I went through some very difficult times at that particular point in my life, and I really experienced a lot of grief.  A lot of sadness, that part where your heart is just aching, it feels that empty feeling.  You know what it is that I’m speaking about?  It doesn’t have to be the kinds of things that I’m sharing with you today, but it might be about you having a relationship fall apart.  Or, you find out that your child is doing something that you really are not happy about.  Or, you find out that somebody has lied to you, or betrayed you, or you do lose someone, whatever it is.  The heart really has a place where it hurts.  And, the truth is that in our human experience, we’re going to have those things.  What’s also true is sometimes you may not have those things occur to you, but you just feel that pain, that real deep, heavy, empty core feeling.  I’ve spoken to several people in the last couple of weeks that are speaking about this.  It’s called existential suffering.  It’s that same aching, heavy feeling in our heart, and it’s because we have the illusion that we’re separate from who we really are.

And, in our world it kind of demonstrates itself out and becomes exacerbated by the certain things that occur in our lives.  So, what I want to suggest for you today is to be in touch with that feeling.  And when it’s there, because it usually will, realize that many times come up as grief, and grief works in a pattern.  So, in that pattern what you just do is you just stay with it.  It comes, and then it goes, it comes and it goes, there’s waves that come with that.  And I want to invite you to just stay with it, allow it to be whatever it is.  Allow yourself to just feel it and stay out of your head and just allow the energy to move through you.  Because when you do, you will find BOOM, that you’ll move through it so much faster.  Now, many of you know that I’m licensed in medicine, and I do alternative medicine and all these things.  But if any of you are going through this grief kind of feeling, there is a homeopathic remedy called Ignatia (i-g-n-a-t-i-a) that you can buy in most any health food store, which can help a lot with grief, so it’s just something to think about.

I also want to invite you to be aware that you can learn from this grief.  You can also be in a place where you shut yourself down, or you can stay open.  That’s the key.  Many people when they go through it, they become walled-up.  Don’t do that.  Keep yourself wide open and let your heart know that it’s ok, it’s just a feeling, it’s an energy, and it will pass.  It will definitely pass no matter what it is that you’re going through right now, feel it all the way through.  I want to thank you all that are sharing this and commenting.  Your comments are really important and your sharing is even more awesome.  Thanks for doing that, because I bet if you think about it right now, you know somebody who is currently having kind of an aching heart, that feeling of grief, that feeling of whatever it may be.  And because of that, they could possibly be really shifted from this, so it’s about feeling it all the way through, and shifting that process in your head.

Because it’s how your framing it that’s going to make a difference in whether you’re going to be happy, sad, mad or glad.  Whatever it is that’s going on, allow yourself to stay present, and do go into the deep end where you get completely lost in the emotion to the point where you cannot function anymore.  So, I invite you to go to Esateys@esateys.com, e-s-a-t-e-y-s@e-s-a-t-e-y-s.  And, I want to also invite you to be sharing this, and then letting me know that you’re doing that, because at the end of next week, we’re going to draw names again and I’m going to be giving you a free program called:  Create or Re-ignite Your Perfect Relationship.

And I am excited to share that because last time we had an incredible person win, and I am now going to give Janet another big hug, and thank you again all of you for sharing and commenting.  So, here’s your question for today:  what would it take for me to feel my feelings and just allow myself to be with what is?  What it would it take for me to just feel my feelings and feel it all the way through?  Remember that I do podcasts, longer versions of these, which you can find on my website as well.  Until next time, mwah.  Have an awesome weekend.

Author: Esateys Stuchiner

Esateys (pronounced Ee sáh teez) is an International Life Transformational Speaker, Author, Master Facilitator, Life Coach and Expert in the Human condition. She is a Nationally and Board Certified Nurse Practitioner. For over 30 years, she has practiced, taught and lectured extensively in the allopathic and alternative medicine field.

Esateys is known for her groundbreaking work in the areas of personal empowerment and health restoration using mindset and inner connection as the catalyst for all change.

Esateys describes herself as the ‘Architect of the New You’ and has dedicated her life and professional career to helping her clients create “New Beginnings” by facilitating self empowerment, economic freedom and restored health.

For more information, go to esateys.com.